It Was You And Me Against The World

2010-12-02T22:59:00.000-08:00

TGIF! finally it's the end of the week, am having class tonight @ 7pm.... spells tired. Anyway it's the end of the 3rd week of work today, how fast time flies huh? Training is fun but tiring eventhough all we do is sit infront of the computer and just go through alot of elearning. The cool part about working here is there we have assesment! We have this exam we need to score above 85 marks inorder to pass! It is stressful you know having to study for school and also for work ! Eversince i started working, time is as usual... too little for me. My mondays are for my family, my tuesdays & thursdays are for my boyfriend, my wednesdays and fridays are for my night classes & my saturdays and sundays are for my school assignments! I've always thought that i was a monring person since i am always up early whenever i am not working. teehee. but i found out that i wasn't when i started working, waking up @ 6 in the morning was once of the toughest challenges in life ever ! i even slept early every night now hoping it would be easier for me to wake up in the morning but damn it doesn't even work! Anyway what else should i update about eh? Hmmm family is doing great, Ethan is growing up very well now, he knows what is a fan, spoon, watch, clock, drum, umbrealla etc. My mom is no longer sick, my dad is working hard, my sister is forever complaining. So everything seems pretty normal for me :) anyway it's my time to go now. ttyl

2010-11-17T04:05:00.000-08:00

I just spent the entire day at home today ! Slept for nearly 12 hours, explains how tired i was. Even after my 12 hours of sleep i am still extremely sleepy ! I will be turning in early today for work tomorrow ! I'll be meeting the love tmr, haven been spending quality time recently because i was busy. :( okay, i will be gg to sleeeeeeeeep now!!!!!!!!!

2010-11-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

Today was my first day of work @ Delta, honestly the work environment is fine it's nice. The people there are friendly, okay maybe not all of them but most of them are friendly. :) They kept welcoming us to the Delta Airlines family. Honestly i feel happy cause i consider this my first job eventhough i've worked at different places before. Anyway i just celebrated my mom's birthday tgt with my brother and my sister. :) MY MOTHER IS SO SUPER DUPER CUTE SOMETIMES! She wasn't expecting any cake or present at all. So when she saw the cake & present, she made a super duper cute face! Teehee. I LOVE MY MOTHER SO MUCH, I THANK ALLAH FOR MY MOTHER !!! :D

Will go to bed early tonight ! Am gonna have another long day tmr at work and in school !

XOXOXOXO

2010-11-14T07:13:00.000-08:00

Life failed me today, just one day.

boring

2009-12-26T16:56:00.000-08:00

I noticed that I haven been posting anything over here, well I'm busy with attachment. sucks big time. I'm working now @ the club lounge now and currently there's only one couple here having their breakfast. I wonder why they don't wanna go down cause there are lots more of food downstairs for you to choose. Well I guess they like privacy and quietness. Cause when you're alone @ club lounge it's like super quiet , you'll get bored......

2009-12-15T05:18:00.000-08:00

FUCKYEAHPARAMORE! MY ONLY REASON TO SPEND BIG BUCKS ON! I'M GONNA GET THE MOST EXPENSIVE TICKETS JUST TO SEE YOU HAYLEY ! I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS! I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY ! ANOTHER REASON FOR Q & I TO CELEBRATE ^^ AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I FUCKING LOVE YOU PARAMORE!

EVERYONE SAY FUCK YEAH PARAMORE !

2009-12-13T04:31:00.000-08:00

ME IN WHITE TSHIRT WITH SELF WRITTEN WORDS " BABY I LOVE YOU ! ALL THE BEST ! I SUPPORT YOU !!! ALL THE WAY!! "

If you don't like to see this picture or you think it's not sweet or it disgusts you, don't come to my page. Cause i don't give a fuck if anyone doesn't like it. ^^

2009-12-13T00:09:00.000-08:00

Sometimes don't you just wish that your girlfriend or boyfriend would just tell you not to let go or don't go or just hold you there and not let you go? I do. I think it's sweet, truth is I'd just break down and cry if this happens to me (:

Qusyairi got posted for NS already, next year on the 27th of April. I hope he gets to HNT instead so that he can defer his NS again it's kinda too fast to accept if he's gg to NS within about 5 months time. & he ever once told me if he had to go to NS he'd let me go. He has very little confidence in himself. He claims that it doesn't matter cause he doesn't want me to suffer waiting for him. I think that's just excuses, he's just scared. The purpose of my picture ! Seee! Don't let me go silly. Whatever it is whether you go to NS next year or you don't i still wanna be with you. I know 2 years is unpredictable anything can happen, who knows you might turn gay or smth idk or maybe i went off with someone else. But i just have a feeling that we can make it through. Just like my bestfriend and her boyfriend ^^ Siewhui & Hidir, I seriously salute them. They always go to Ehub play bowling and eat Burger king. So if you see a couple both skinny , playing bowling @ ehub or eating mexican drumlets @ BK you KNOW its THEM! (:

Qusyairi wake up.

2009-12-12T17:30:00.001-08:00

"I love the way my fingers just fall into yours. I love how your taste still lingers on my lips after that special goodnight kiss. I love how whenever I go to call someone I automatically dial your number. I love how you look at me with those gorgeous eyes and then you smile that sweet smile. I know right there that you will always be mine. I love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go. I love you more than words could ever show."

- (via eletheowl) (via ssomuchlove)

2009-12-11T22:28:00.000-08:00

I just wanna be alone tonight, Not.

2009-12-11T20:36:00.000-08:00

Abortion.

qomaspeakup:

imareblogger:

Month1: Mommy! Im 4 inches long. It’s so warm in here!

Month2: Mommy! I hear your voice. It’s a sweet luliby.

Month3: Mommy! I just found out im a boy. Aren’t you glad?

Month4: Mommy! I learned how to suck my thumb! I get alot of exercise! I can turn my head and stretch.

Month5: Mommy! Why are you crying it makes me cry to see you cry even if you can’t see me.

Month6: Mommy! That doctor lied to you. I am real. I don’t like that doctor at all.

Month7: Mommy! I hear that doctor again. Whats Abortion? WOW Mommy I feel a needle its burning Mommy! help me! I can’t get away from it…

Mommy it’s ok i’m in God’s hands now and he explained to me what abortion is.How could you do this? Didn’t you want me Mommy?

Got this from a friend's tumblr. This is so cruel & it's a sad story. I wonder how would a girl who went for abortion feel upon reading this?

2009-12-10T05:07:00.000-08:00

"My life's pretty messed up & here i am struggling to hold on to it."

2009-12-09T19:03:00.001-08:00

Basically, I think love is a feeling. It’s that feeling you get when you know you are going to see that person. You’re always counting down the minutes, the hours, the days, or even the months until you will see him again. Cause you love that feeling you have when you’re with him. You know that butterfly, giggly, warm, this-smile-is-never-gonna-leave-my-face feeling. Love is a feeling of perfect happiness and contentment. Being in his arms means that everything will be okay and even if it’s really not going to be, you get a feeling that he’ll do whatever he can to make it be, or just to try to make you feel better. It’s that feeling that you are loved for who you are, and you love him for who he is. Every bit of him, no matter how obnoxious or out of character it may seem at times. It’s about he is the first one you want to talk to when anything is good or bad, and how you are always learning something new, everyday that you are with him. It’s about changing and being a new person. Not necessarily changing your ways or who you are, but wanting to be a different and a better person, simply because that person is in your life and you want to be everything to them.

2009-12-09T08:19:00.001-08:00

Laying there with your arms around me I felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me. As you played with my hair and kissed me, I couldn’t help but smile straight from my heart. I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes. It made me never want to let you go. To just stay wrapped in your arms forever. Where nothing else matters but me and you.

2009-11-29T17:13:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU

2009-11-22T16:57:00.000-08:00

This is my turning point of life.

1. No more vulgarities anymore. ( I'm really trying to cut down )
2. Spend money wisely. ( I have been eating cup noodles everyday )
3. Stop drinking coke. ( I've been drinking energy drinks brought from home )
4. Work hard during my attachment. ( I'm working on it )
5. Take care of my health well
6. No sleeping @ 3 am anymore
7. Start planning for the future

2009-11-12T19:40:00.000-08:00

I've been really busy with work, i hardly have time for anything @ all. I practically have no time for sleep, for family, for Qusyairi, for close friends, for going out. I have nothing, i have no life now. And obviously when you have no time for anything, you practically don't even have the time to text or call your friends up. Which means losing friends. I hardly talk to my family too now cause whenever i get back from work they are all asleep and i'll hit the bed straight and when i am awake for work.. .. they are all still asleep. Something i lost as well family love. Lastly my baby, i neglected him. :( I'm so sorry babe, you know i love you. & i never meant to hurt you with my texts. Just bear with me for the time being i'm working really hard for our goal to accomplish by the end of year 2009 remember? We'll stay strong for one another. (:

Sigh, my life is so messed up ever since i started working in __H. R shift 12nn to 9.30pm , B shift 1.30pm - 11pm , A shift 7am - 4.30pm , I hate them all ! I hate working in service centre and i hate working @ front desk as well. The stress is soooooooooooooooooooo #$##%$&%^*#@$! . I get pissed of by the local guests and some unfriendly and rude foreign guests. I mean, you don't have to shout @ people right? It's like people use money as something to look down on people who are working. Annoying people. And yes about the fake smiles, how do we pretend to smile when you're getting fucked upside down by the guest??????? And some guests just don't understand simple simple simple english ! Told them a million times, Sir our hotel is running full occupancy. If you would like to extent your stay with us, we'll have to upgrade you to our exec suite room @ 380++ per night. Is that okay Sir? & they will reply, WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT I HAVE TO PAY 380 FOR ANOTHER ROOM! I DIDN'T EVEN SAY I WAS GOING TO CHECKOUT TODAY WHAT?! ( it stated clearly he was only staying for one night in the reg card and he already SIGNED it , which means he himself was certain that he was staying for only one night. Stupid fcuker ) We answer, No sir as you can see on our hotel's reg card you your departure is supposed to be today @ 12nn. But it's already 8pm now sir. And your room is already due out. You have already signed on the reg card sir. He replies rudely, WHAT?! I DIDN'T EVEN SIGN THIS THING?! NO NO... THIS IS NOT A REG CARD ( IT IS CAUSE WE WORK HERE SO WE KNW IT IS A REG CARD, CAUSE WE PRINTED IT OUT OURSELVES ) I SIGNED IT FOR BILLING. NO NO. I REMEMBERED I SIGNED IT ON A BLANK PIECE OF PAPER! How can we let a guest sign a blank piece of paper ? You dumb? It's a fucking reg card dude! IF AH IF CAN NK SMACK DOWN JER!

I'm working on my mom's birthday :(

A different story

2009-11-11T20:21:00.000-08:00

I was so wrong for so long
Only tryna please myself
Girl, I was caught up in the club
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

So let me in give me another chance
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you were meant to be together

Girl, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
Cause things ain't right

2009-11-04T23:14:00.001-08:00

the moment i found out that you lied to me, i thought i felt a sharp pain in my chest. i was calling out for help but there wasn’t any voice and no one came to rescue me. i thought i felt my heartbeat stop , i thought i was dead. because the pain, it was excruciating. and my tears , it seemed like as though i was crying an ocean for you.

2009-10-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

Hi Qusyairi, I miss you. You miss me?

2009-10-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU GUYS (:

2009-10-25T21:26:00.000-07:00

2009-10-24T10:39:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUSYAIRI’S MUMMY (:

xoxo, erina

2009-10-24T10:35:00.000-07:00

Uh…….I miss you.

2009-10-24T10:17:00.000-07:00

Hello Alison i still like you even though you have huge scary eyes, i still like you even though you like blood, i still think you're ANTM even though you lost to Teyona. I think you're still the best for this cycle. (:

2009-10-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

Went out to celebrate my brother and his wife's birthday today! Went to have lunch @ Waraku my brother's face place to eat. Brought the baby along and he is so cuteeeee. I wish i could squeeze him just now..... Was supposed to head out with baby, but he couldn't make it when i was about to leave home......... I understand why but it's just disappointing ahhhhhh. I kept pretending that i didn't make any plans with him today. ........ I'm starting my attachment this tuesday....... Erm, i'm scared and nervous actually. :( No more free time. No more last min dinners/meet ups. No more quality time with B. Blah3 the list goes on and on and on and on. :( fuck.

i hate you sia qusyairi j

2009-10-23T23:43:00.001-07:00

i am sad. i am sad. it's so last minute. i fucking hate this. why is it ALWAYS so last minute?

2009-10-19T20:25:00.001-07:00

To last that long is true love.

I held him close to me with my eyes closed, wondering if anything in my life had ever been this perfect and knowing at the same time that it hadn’t. I was in love, and the feeling was even more wonderful than I ever imagined it could be.

500 days of summer

2009-10-19T10:05:00.000-07:00

This movie is really goooooood. I like the storyline very much. It touches on the good times in every relationship as well as the bad times. From day 1 to 500. How a boy fell in love with a girl. From a really happy start , the laughter, the smiles, the happy moments, movies, picnic, talking, sleeping, everything. Towards the middle, the 1st fight, silent treatment, unable to sleep, picking up the phone, dialing her number, hung up before the line was through, tossing and turning in bed, girl appears @ his doorstep , apologized, kissed, smiled. Towards the ending, girl cries watching a movie, lefts right after movie, relationship gets cold, things changed, no kisses, no smiles, girl feels bored, guy notices that something is wrong but just continues to pretend that everything is alright. Girl leaves in the end, guy totally heartbroken, falls into depression. Etc. But because this is reality, it's real. It happens, Therefore i love this movie even more. 100 thumbs up.

2009-10-16T02:54:00.000-07:00

If you're upset, need to laugh badly, need to stop crying immediately, i suggest you watch numbnuts, chick vs dick , xiaxue's guide to life all on clicknetwork.tv (: I enjoyed watching all the videos they really made me laugh like crazy. Numbnuts is awesome, it's similar to Jackass. I think Hutch is hot and Mike 's cute! I watched both videos and laughed my ass off. Chick vs dick is awesome too, Kaykay is really pretty i don't get why people keep giving negative comments about her, i mean just let her be. It's her life. As for Paul, he's cute. Hahaha! The both of them look like a couple and i wouldn't be surprised if they were together in the future. They are compatible. (: You guys should watch from the 1st ep it's really funny. As for Xiaxue's guide to life it's awesome as well ! She's very funny and she's real. She's not afriad of negative comments she just lives her life the way she wants it and doesn't bother even if people were to hate her. Her videos are interesting. I was really unhappy today but these videos made my day. Whenever i'm bored i'd start watching them again from the 1st ep (:

Fuckcramps.

2009-10-14T21:01:00.000-07:00

I swear that you don't have to go, i thought we could wait for the fireworks.

2009-10-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

I love black, basics, sneakers, vans, highcuts, wedges, heels, lakerol, purple, cosmo, glamour, 18, brisbane, dogs, night, sea, cats, ice cream, keds, hope, megan fox, sims3, taken, topshop, riverisland, choco fudge brownie ice cream, nice beautiful lace, thongs, X strap bras, tshirts, jeans, mom's cooking, nasi ayam , roti john, sound of your voice, prata, lips, smiles, your hands, antm, simple, studs, love, smokey eyes, dresses, leggings, bangles, boots, laughter, heart shapes, channel 32-36 , mtv , curves, mk&a olsen, checks, polka dots, lines, flowers, purple mats, mirrors, rain shower , black floor tiles, jacuzzi , paramore, vogue, cobra starship, lil wayne, totes, vespa piaggo lx150, nail polish, lip liner, lip stick, eyeshadow, gliter, pixie lott, 2, E63, Qq, Elizabeth ardern greentea perfume, Sex in the city , lust perfume, nice hair, low pro, straight cut, pull & bear, forever 21, adidas, black , i think i just mentioned black again.

There is just so much things i love, i probably missed out alot.

Xoxo , erina y.

2009-10-12T20:08:00.000-07:00

2009-10-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

Dear Qusyairi, I seriously miss you. Hmmm, I can't sleep cause i keep thinking of you. I'm imagining to myself now the way you're sleeping. No one knows you sleep talk (: No one knows you like to move your mouth when you're asleep. No one knows that you like to kick when you're in deep sleep. But you know what? I miss you doing all that ! I like our conversation over the phone just now, it started with the little fights we always have once in awhile then the i'm sorry , then the small talk, and then the huge laughter (: I need more of that Qusyairi i hope you'll make the effort to call me all night (: Good night Qusyairi. I hope you dream about us (: I love you , you know that i do.

Ps: I'll wake you up for school tomorrow, the day after tomorrow & every other day Baby.

Xoxo, Erina

2009-10-12T03:21:00.000-07:00

& the sad thing is that this boy is going to be busy once again :( since school has started for him and that he enrolled already and also because that he join sepak takraw club he has very little time for me :( 1/3/5 takraw training, 6 takraw game. 2/4/7 might be working / prac. What the. ... .. . I hate you Qusyairi , for doing this to me :( Hmph.

Ps: But i know that no matter how busy you are you'll definately make time for me (: ( i still hate you a tiny winy bit )

Xoxo, Erina

2009-10-11T22:06:00.000-07:00

It's the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. and it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

Qusyairi's 18th!

2009-10-09T04:11:00.001-07:00

Happy 18th Birthday Baby ! I hope you liked every bit of your 3days2nights Birthday celebration ! And i want to thank all of you who came! Nel for going to Qus house to pick him up as though he is the King and having to wait for him for so long, Sallyha for going out with me to pick the decorations for the room and also to have to wake up like @ 10am to meet me to buy snacks , Haziq / Eddy & Zul for making it to his birthday and for helping me to carry my 10kg bag, Kin & Syaza for coming when times are hard for you guys (: I really appreciate your help guys. (:

I booked a 3 day 2 night stay @ the Scarlet Hotel for his birthday celebration this year. It's the second year i'm celebrating his birthday for him but i believe it's not just going to be 2 years there will be even more (: There were problems on the 7th before checking in :( I didn't withdraw enough cash so i had to go to the nearest Atm to withdraw cash... When i reached the Atm , the fucking machine wouldn't work so i suppose since Chinatown his quite big there should be other Atms but no..... I was wrong , i was running like an idiot all hot and sweaty already. Then Sallyha asked a passerby where is the nearest Atm and he said Pearl's centre... Wth was that? It was @ Outram park. From Chinatown to Outram park -.-" I felt really stressed and fucked up already by then, after withdrawing the cash i ran until i couldn't stopped for awhile & started to run again. Then we got lost because i brought them to the wrong place:( We walked a huge round & finally reach the Hotel. And i ran back so that i can pay asap. But ! Wrong. Had more than enough cash in hand already but .... Now the age. :( I had to be 21 to be able to check it. But i booked already :( I was really really realy really really upset @ that point of time i almost cried. Then everyone started to check their contacts to see if they had any friends @ the age of 21. :( I was stressed i had no friends @ the age of 21 :( Thank god baby was with Nel i told them to walk around first b4 coming down if not it'll be even more depressing for me. Then Zul passed me his phone asked me to talk to his friend and i thought i was saved but no :( His friend blm 21 yet. :( So i started to panic wondering if i should change to another hotel instead. But my heart kept telling me no, Baby and i really looked forward to the stay @ Scarlet hotel very much cause we really like the place very much. :( Then Zul passed me his phone again, this time i was really praying hard his friend would help me out, thank god his friend was really nice he helped me out even when i was a stranger to him. I paid for his cab fare since i asked him to help me (: I thanked him @ least 10 times i guess, but in my heart i was thanking him up till today. (:

After checking in we settled down and started to decorate the room fast. We wasted alot of time due to the money & check in. Thanks to everyone who helped blowing the balloons, lighting up the candles and all that. Without you guys i bet i'll be crying like a sissy. (: When we're almost down we called Nel and asked them to cab down ! & i called for Pizzahut delivery to treat everyone! We ordered 4 pizzas 20 piece chix and 2 garlic bread. Just after i hang up the phone Nel called to say that they have reached. @ that point of time everyone started to panic ! Everyone hid in the toilet and i just stayed outside of the toilet waiting for his arrival ! :D & then the bell rang & i went to open the door and Nel already blindfolded him ! HAHA! Baby told me he really scared his legs went weak and he almost fell. (: And Nel said 3,2,1 ! Everyone came out and said surprise and Eddy and Haziq opened the Party poppers! :D Surprise 1 success ! (: He was really shocked he hugged the guys. HAHA! When he went in to the toilet he pulled me along and said thank you and said he almost cried but he couldn't cause there were too many people! HAHA! After sitting down for awhile Syaza came ! And then Pizzahut arrived. We went out to take the food and brought it back to the room and all the hungry pigs started eating (:

Before Check in

Balloon fight !

Card i made for B

Nel/Bday boy/Eddy/Zul

Zul/Haziq/Eddy/Bday boy/Nel

Sallyha/Kin/Me

Right after we finished eating, it was 15 mins before 7! & the 2nd surprise is up! I went out with Sallyha to meet the very nice Pak cik to get the cake and when we're outside the Pak cik shouted Room Service ! They opened the door and we sang the birthday song to Baby ! He was speechless and just smiled :D:D

Birthday boy with the Boys

Birthday boy with the Girls

With his buddy of 5 years

After cake the boys went to the Jacuzzi to slack while the girls stayed in the room to do catching up and picture taking ! (: After all the talking and all we went up to find the boys (:

@ 12.00Am 3rd Surprise (:

All the presents and the candle light dinner (:

9th, 1045am. Last picture before we check out !

There's like 300 over pictures and alot more to blog about but i think this is enough already ! :D

2009-10-05T23:45:00.001-07:00

I am really excited for tomorrow. Like super excited. Cause tomorrow is the 7th. Will be celebrating baby's birthday (: Have an early celebration with him tmr and on the 8th it'll be just us both (: Been busy thinking/planning/preparing. I'm really excited.

2009-10-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

Happy 19th Months <3 !

Celebrate with you on your 18th alright? More special.
ILY(:

2009-10-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

1st (:

Me , Bby, Nel & Sallyha

Baby Ethan in long hair looking really handsome. HAHA!

Baby Ethan's mini pool !

Baby Ethan with new haircut. BOTAK! HAHA!

Swimming in his mini pool ( :

2009-09-30T12:26:00.000-07:00

When he asked me not to go, i said okay baby i won't go alright?

But i'm not sure about next year if i've to go for 4 years. Seems like mom and sis are damn serious about it. Sigh.

2009-09-28T21:38:00.000-07:00

I surprised Syazanie yesterday again. & I gave her our photo with a message behind it. (: I hope it makes you feel better Nur Syazanie. So ya, yesterday i met up with Syaza & Eri. We walked around and i got myself a pair of heels. & Syaza bought her prom dress ( super nice okay ). Eri bought nothing except for Hotdog & Taro turnover. & after buying Syaza's dress Apik joined us. & We slacked @ Bk. Eri painted my nails. & we were talking about this thursday so.... She will be doing both make up & hair styling for both Syaza & I. kening naik2. We laughed alot yesterday and it was really fun meeting them (: train-ed / cabb-ed home with syaza. Home sweet home.

& blah2 only managed to sleep @ 5.50am.

2009-09-28T13:12:00.000-07:00

But i realise i can never stay mad @ you for long Qusyairi.
Why? Why is this so :(

2009-09-28T09:56:00.001-07:00

I am very angry. Very very angry with Qusyairi. Don't bother asking why. I am just angry with him. Very super angry.

2009-09-28T09:56:00.000-07:00

I am very angry. Very very angry with Qusyairi. Don't bother asking why. I am just angry with him. Very super angry.

2009-09-27T22:20:00.000-07:00

Yup that's the boy i'm super in love with ^^

2009-09-27T10:07:00.001-07:00

Well, the secret is. .... ... ... .... ...

I just love you so much Qusyairi !

:0

2009-09-25T22:00:00.001-07:00

When a girl pushes you away and tries to shut you out, that’s when she needs you the most.

2009-09-25T11:57:00.000-07:00

hehehe.

2009-09-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

I want to thank you for trying to show and tell me the things you cannot express all these while.

You cried and said, please don't leave me okay baby? & I wiped your tears away and said i won't leave you. & then you said the magic sentence , ' It's like you're my daily routine now, meeting you is my daily routine now, I can't live without you '

Thank you <3 :D

Xoxo, E-rina

2009-09-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

2009-09-22T21:38:00.000-07:00

<3's coming over veryvery soon. My brother and sister gave him a job to do today. Haha.
He's the man of the household today, he has to tell the contractor what to do l8r on when they come & he has to take care of my new house! Hahaha! They were afraid i'd forget the things they told me to tell the contractor. ( Which i really did forget ) So they asked him to help. Hahaha. So now i am very happy & excited again cause i get to spend the whole day with him (:

I'll be attending my relative's funeral on Thursday @ Msia. :'( :'(

Xoxo.

Finally

2009-09-22T06:47:00.000-07:00

An extremely happy day for me. 2nd day @ new home but this time with love. Was really excited to meet Qusyairi today. We haven been meeting due to preparations for Raya & Raya itself. So we made plans to meet up today to spend our usual quality time. Picked him up from work @ 4. I thought i was late cause i reaced @ 4.05. So i rushed up but ! He's not finished with work yet. So... I waited and waited. I was really really nervous as usual. & when he got out we just hugged tightly ! Smiled like idiots. I really miss this boy. We walked around and landed ourselves @ Candy empire. Bought 200grams of chocolates. Bought Chips. & We bus-ed home. & I welcomed him to my new place. So we settled down & started cutting and pasting all the pictures i printed on to the huge photoframe i got from ikea. Having super glue stucked onto our fingers, laughing @ each other, shivering due to 16dc aircon. Then my mirror arrived. We had our Mac dinner. Played wheel of fortune. Cleaned my room. Completed photoframe.

Now, my sleeping beauty is sleeping soundly right beside me. & I'm feeling blessed to have him right by my side. I <3 this sleeping beauty very much despite the fights or arguements we've been through. It's like there's this feeling or something you cannot explain @ all. But it's just love + happiness + love + happiness all mixed together. (: Something very beautiful.

Xoxo, Erina.

2009-09-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

Love the lights

Very messy. Was busy unpacking stuff.

Done packing

2009-09-19T21:53:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya To All Muslims ! Maaf Zahir Dan Batin !
Be it whether you are my friend or not ! ^^

To <3 : I'm sorry if i made you angry / upset :( , Please forgive me okay? :D I've too much to say to you so i'll mintak maaf personally when i'm with you. :D:D

To all my close friends. / Groupmates / Friends
Siewhui, Kinkin, Rifhan, Hanisah, Syaza, Doreen, Julailah, Fidiyanah, Murnie, Wati , Zaki, Man, Fir, Ash, Khim, Kai. ( And the list goes on and on )If I've ever done anyt that made you upset / mad / cry / happy / laugh / whatever , I'm sorry!

My girl came over to my place yesterday ( the first person okay )

Helped me unpacked and all, pictures, full blast music, laughing like crazy, eating, karaoke ( inside story ). Was really awesome , after that the other half came over and we went over to the geylang. Packed with people, kite semua dah mcm sardine. Sweat as though we just got out from bath. Named our kids, Doreen's son : Muhammad Ramly Bin Burger / Syaza's daughter : Nur Deng deng Binte Katak / My son : Muhammad Keropok Bin Lekor . Loads of nonsense. Bought Ramly and lekor and large coke and settled down. Stayed on laughing and catching up with life till 12ish then went home ! Had a great time with both my girls. <3

Happy Birthday Syafiq ! (: I wish you all the best alright friend , do take care of yourself !

Fasting month is over, can you believe it ? It seems as though smlm was the first day of puase.
But whatever it is, Selamat Hari Raya all (:

XOXO, E-rina

2009-09-18T11:43:00.000-07:00

We make quite a pair/pear (:

A few of my favourite shots with you my sweetest joy.

Busy with new house/busy with Raya preparations.

Our next date out on Tuesday , I'll wait. (:

Xoxo, Erina

Happy 18th Otherhalf

2009-09-17T21:43:00.000-07:00

My other half , my birthday girl.

Part of Present 1.

End product of Present 1.

Everyone looking very happy !

Left to right

Eri , Bday girl , Ju , Kinkin , Me

Ju bby, Eriana, Erina

There's a reason why i am so happy in that picture above. My otherhalf got attached on her special day. (:

Okay i'm going to to post about what really happened for her birthday.

Last year i didn't celebrate Syaza's birthday. Okay wrong i did i gave her a cake @ 12AM. But she doesn't eat cakes. Then this year she made me swear and promise that i will celebrate her 18th with her. So i promised her that and i told her i'm going to make her cry on her 18th. ( I did ) But 2 weeks before her birthday, i started to treat her differently, no calls, no texts, berbual on phone pun mcm malas nak layan, acting very unfriendly towards her, cold shoulder. When she said she miss me with a :(, i replied, imyt. With no :(/:) no emotions @ all one word replies. Then when it was 2 days before her birthday she was telling me everyone's busy maybe no one's able to celebrate her birthday with her and i said this without even comforting her, oh yeah i might not be free as well. I've to clean up @ my new house. My mom says i can't head out. And i'm tired. And she didn't reply me after that. ( terus sedih ) Then when the clock struck 12Am on the 16th Sept on going to 17th. She was expecting that i would be one of the first to wish her. But.. .. .I didn't wish her. Did it on purpose. I even went to wish others but not her. Muahahaha. Padahal i Ju & I were chatting online planning about her birthday. Then Ju told me.. .. This is the best part. Syaza cried very badly. ( I MADE HER CRY ) I really wanted the plan to go on so still no wish. But. ... this girl cried till 3AM! So i started feeling guilty i texted her this. Happy 18th birthday. Enjoy your day. Have fun. Takecare. ( I NEVER TEXTED HER THIS WAY BEFORE ). Then she didn't reply. I sent her another text saying, oh ya this is Joan if you actually saved my number @ all. Nights. ( HAHAHAHAH !!! ) She then replied saying she really appreciated it and all that saying that she did save my number. ( she lied she was actually angry ). I just replied yeah great. night. ( THIS PART OBVIOUS ALR SMTH WRONG ). Then i went to sleep. I woke up to help my mom with packing and all. Then she texted me while i was preparing, she sent me a very long sweet text saying that she was only looking forward to me celebrating her birthday with her, telling me that i'm a very awesome friend who will not forget her birthday. And saying that she wished that i could be there to celebrate her 18th but i can't. Etc. And guess what i ignored her text. Haha. I went out to meet Kin2, went to get her Birthday cookie since she doesn't eat cakes. Train-ed to Somerset. Syaza was 2 stops after Kin & I. We were so afriad that she'd bump into us in the train. So when Kin & I reached, we hid inside the Small squeezy ID photo booth for 20 mins. HAHA! It was really squeezy okay. But we actually paid 6 bucks to take the funshot @ the ID photobooth. Haha ! Then Ju texted me saying Syaza dah sampai. Kin and i started to panic because we had to collect our photo outside the booth ! HAHAHAHA! I told Ju to bring Syaza to the booth. So that we can surprise her ! And when Ju reached she was saying: Syaza! want to take photo ? She didn't have to mood to layan Ju she turned away -.-" Then Kin & I came out of the small photo booth and sang her a birthday song !!!!!!! HAHAHAHA. She was shocked of course because she didn't expect any of this @ all. She nearly cried or cried when she hide her face @ the corner of the photobooth. ( kan syaza? ) HAHA! Stupid girl who thought i forgot her birthday , who thought i'm not going to celebrate her birthday with her. I would never do that okay ! You are my other half what ! (:

Whatever it is Otherhalf, i'm sorry to make you cry ! But i hope you love the surprise okay? It was hard for me too okay to pretend ( though i had fun trying to ) . Happy 18th birthday once again and CONGRATS on you know what (:

" When you feel your heart's guarded and you see the brakes started and when the clouds have all departed you'll be right here with me and when your tears are dry from crying and when the worlds have turned silent so when the clouds have all departed you'll be right here with me. When your trapped and there's just no key, And you can't breathe, I breathe for you.
The fire's got you down on both knees, And the walls are closing in but I will ,Break it through. And when you feel alone, I'm a be at home. Whenevers comes and go,You know I got you.
I will be right here with you,You'll be right here with me. "

Remember this during H I S lesson when Mr Alan took over Hasnah? It really applies to our friendship.

XOXO, E-rina.

2009-09-16T23:10:00.000-07:00

Painted this for my N level art. feel like getting it back.

2009-09-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

Will only show this when it arrives next week.
I prefer the black one though , kan Julailah bby(:

2009-09-16T10:59:00.001-07:00

you're busy with work now and i really miss you so much.
busy schedule means lesser quality time spent. imybaby.

2009-09-15T23:32:00.000-07:00

i keep forgetting this, i lost my sim card everyone. so if you texted me/called me but i didn't reply or my phone was off , my sim card is lost. okay? pandai2 find me okay?

i kinda like the fact that my card hilang. i lost all contacts but i'm happy about it. i have a few important contatcs left. i's already more than enough to me. i don't have alot of friends. and i don't need alot of friends @ all. it doesn't really matter much even if i lost my contacts.

been really busy packing, shifting, moving, cleaning. i practically have no time @ all. the curent house is in a mess, i hate it. i can't wait to shift. i am really tired now. moving is really tiring. even tmr ? syaza'a 18th i guess i won't be meeting her. i'm really busy. tomorrow i've to stay @ my new house to do more cleaning and shifting of stuff. idk man. i feel bad cause i promised her that i'll make it to her 18th this year but guess what i have no choice. i can't go against my mom.

this week is fucked up.

2009-09-14T13:38:00.000-07:00

It's 4.38am now, i can't sleep. I miss Qusyairi. I miss his voice. I miss his smell. I miss his smile. I miss his small eyes. I miss his hugs. I miss his presence. I miss hugging him. I miss smelling his hair. I miss playing with his hair. I miss him feeding me fries/chips. I miss him calling me clumsy. I miss whenever i complain that it's very cold and he'd make me warm. I miss meeting him under his void deck waiting for him. I miss having Mac breakfast with him. I miss us complaining that mega mac spicy is fucking spicy that we wanna cry. I miss him saying i'm lazy just because i didn't help him mix chili and mayo. I miss ordering mac spicy plain add cheese for him. I miss calling pasta mania and ordering 3 cheesedips and 2 nachos cause Qusyairi perangai babi nak makan banyak. I miss him trying to catch me when i try running away from him. I miss him complaining about how lazy i am nowadays and always making him take/do things. I miss tickling his armpits. I miss looking @ him shake his butt doing nobody dance. I miss him telling me that he is handsome -.-". I miss taking bus to vivo with him. I miss watching movies with him @ vivo. I miss his few strands of white hair. I miss his 10-15 moles on his face. I miss his caterpillar eyebrows. I miss his laughter. I miss sleeping beside him. I miss him telling me he love me whenever i pretend to sleep and he thinks i've fallen into deep sleep. I miss picking clothes for him to wear. I miss swimming with him. I miss having karaoke session with him @ home. I miss jumping onto him without him noticing me.

There's many more but it's impossible to list them all out because the list goes on for as long as we hold on to each other. I love you Qusyairi.

2009-09-14T13:01:00.001-07:00

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile; how much I love your laugh. I day dream about you off and on, replaying our conversations; laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we’re together and even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.

2009-09-14T12:32:00.000-07:00

2009-09-14T11:17:00.000-07:00

Since today's like my only day free for the entire week. I decided to meet up with Julailah bby as we haven seen each other for months. So we decided to buke tgt. She teman-ed me to ikea cause i had to get new furniture for my room. Bought my stuff and we went grocery shopping for break fast. After that we went back to my place and got ready for break fast, watched dead silence while eating. Dead silence was somewhat scary. I don't really like it because of the scary dolls. Never fail to freak me out with their huge eyes. After all that. Julailah helped me to decorate my furniture ! It's very very nice , i like i like ! And i think the both of us are monsters. We were so thristy that we finished drinking 1/2 a bottle to 3/4 of our 1.5l softdrinks in less than 1-2 hours? HAHA!

Bby, i had a great time with you today ! More of this, swensens date after PAUSA tau. :)

Only going to reveal this when i move into my new house!

Had to buy this cause it's very adorable and i like cats.

Had cup noodles and glazed teriyaki chix for break fast :D

Julailah bby(:

2009-09-13T21:04:00.001-07:00

I've been really busy the whole of last week. Super tiring week for me. Feels like i'm also preparing for Raya gitu. Cleaning of the wardrobes, windows, kitchen, mopping and sweeping of floors. It sounds so easy but .. .. It takes alot of time to get them cleaned. All moms are great man i wonder how do they even tolerate all this cleaning. It's so damn tiring. Anyway i am really happy ! Cause, during the Raya eve, i'll be going to my new house alr to clean up again and wait for the tv and stuff to arrive ! And and on the first day of Raya will be the day i'm moving into my new place ! So happy. It feels so great to shift on the first day of Raya. It's like as though i'm celebrating Raya with my family too as my Mom's gonna cook steamboat. I love this so much. ! 8 more days to this !

Lee siew hui & Doreen Ng pei shi, My mom and sister ask the both of you to come on this 19th! Please come????? : )

2009-09-12T09:33:00.000-07:00

How i really wish that this applies in life.

It's about 1,2,3. Because 2 told 1 about this because 2 assumed 1 know ( but assumptions were never a good thing ) but then again 3 don't blame 2 @ all because 3 has nothing to hide @all. And because of that very once sentence that 2 told to 1, 1 got angry with 3 and almost wanted to break up with 3. 3 felt so unfair because 3 has never done anything behind 1's back before. 3 never never never ever dared to do so because 3 knew that no matter what happens no matter who comes into 3's life , 3'll never ever ever stop loving 1. Because 3 knew that 1 was the one for 3. But because 1's ego was huge, 1's temper was really bad, 1's anger is @ it's max, 1 almost wanted to leave 3 for something 3 never even done before. Nevermind. 3 cried like no one's business went over to 1's void deck to find 1. Waited for 1 until 12am. 3 called and called and texted 1 so many many many times but 1 decided that it's better 1 ignores 3. Leaving 3 alone under 1's void deck waiting for 1 for 2 and a half hours. When 1 finally answered 3's call. 1 just blowed 1's top @ 3. 1 didn't even mind ending the 18 months rlshp with 3. 3 just couldn't accept what 1 said to 3, 3 sat down on the floor crying like a sissy still wanting to wait for 1 despite things going that way. .... . 3 called 2 telling 2 about the whole situation but 2 said 2 was busy and needed to put down the phone. Weird cause, 2 never once treated 3 like this before. So 3 immediately knew that it was 2 who told 1 about it. 1 & 3 nearly just ended things that very moment. Both 1 & 3 cried for almost 3 hours trying to solve things out. It was really the worst day and feeling for the both of 1 & 3 throughout the 18 months they've been together.

Wouldn't it be a waste if things were to really end between 1 & 3 ? When the both of them are crazy in love with each other???? Give my 3 some opinions? (:

& today my mom told me that ........................

Maybe next year after getting my cert in Ite , i won't be in Sing for 4-5 years. ......
She's sending me to study overseas. ... ........................... I'm having plenty mixed feelings. So much things are happening. All of this makes me stress. And i feel like there's going to be so little time left to spend with b and friends if mom's sending me to study abroad. :'(

Shity. I hate this week of 2009.

2009-09-12T06:24:00.001-07:00

Thursday

2009-09-09T23:30:00.000-07:00

Qusyairi Johari ! Stop sleeping please? Kau dah mcm babi kau tau tak ? Kau ni selalu tido3, call tak angkat, message tak reply, kau pergi buang hp kau sudah okay? Please! ^^ .. . . Tapi kan aku masih sayang kau, hehe ^^

Hmmm, i usually meet B on thursdays and saturdays. But this week i gave both a miss because ...
Thursday which is today, i'm going to buke @ Rifhan's place her mom cooked nice food. Saturday because the other half wants to meet up and i myself too wanna meet up to buke with her. Well... It feels kinda weird though, i'm just so used to meeting him on the standard days that whenever there are plans to meet up on these days i will just push the plans away. Hmmm. Now i'm not used to not meeting him -.-" And i miss that pig alot. . . .. But nevermind, we can we make time for each other !

& i don't like the Joey girl.

2009-09-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

Baby Happy 18th Birthday ! (:

I hope you're happy to have your lion ( as promised ). And and i hope you'll stay cheerful & bubbly always. You're a very fun person to be with forever happy (: And i would love to eat Pasta mania with you , Swensens food- ice cream, Breeks, Coffee shop zi cha supper, Waffle dipped with chocolate, Ramly burgers, Ya kun kaya toast, Ya kun's ice blended milo, Cheese toast made by you, Mac breakfast for sahur, Polar puffs, Choco mint 20 years down the road ! (:

Thank you for being there for me always, telling me to stay strong and giving my tissue whenever i cry. I love you deep deep from the bottom of my heart Doreen Ng Pei Shi. HAHAHA!

XOXO, Erina.

Excited

2009-09-08T22:03:00.000-07:00

Sister's room.

Murnie, this is not my toilet it's my wardrobe. HAHAHA!!

Can't wait to decorate my room

I'm meeting Mary later @ 3, I'm going over to her place to make Raya kuih2. It's my first time making Raya kuihs and i'm excited. Thank you Mary for asking me over to help! (: It's been ages since i last met Mary. Finally we're both free to meet up today. (: Bet we're gonna have lots of fun today!

Tomorrow , i'm meeting Rifhan ! I'm going to buke @ her place just like last year. And seriously i'm already feeling all excited for that.

Special

2009-09-08T06:06:00.000-07:00

Before haircut. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

A happy kid after haircut. By the way the haristylist in the picture, he's good. He's from supercuts and i forget his name -.-" But you should really go look for him if you want a nice haircut. He has good skills.

This boy finally finally decided to listen to me & change his hairstyle.

Say byebye to the long hair and welcome short hair. Anyway i prefer you in short hair :D

Happy boy.

2009-09-07T06:18:00.000-07:00

I'm currently watching Mat motor : Edisi srikandi

Murnie just introduced this to me. This show is so nice, it's so touching. I think we're all so lucky to have both parents in our lives, to have enough money to spend for the week or month, to actually sit down with your whole family for dinner. We often forget that there are so many people out there with broken families. We also forget that there are families who survive with only 5 -10 dollars a week or 2 weeks. Don't you think we're so lucky?? A mom who wants new furniture for their family but have no money @ all to buy new furniture? I think i'm very fortunate. And i think we should all treasure what we have, spend more time with our parents, spend money wisely. I miss my parents now. :( They're overseas. I wish i could give them a huge hug right now.

Anyway i can't believe that today is the last day of school :( , i mean i am happy that it's the last day of school and that i don't have to take 1 an a half hours to go to school and home. Hmmm, it's just sad that the lovely morons won't be meeting as often as we used to. I'm gonna miss sleeping in class, eating in the lousy canteen, miss the malay stall uncle calling me syg / calling me his daughter, buying coke from the aunty's stall ( everytime i walk over she will just prepare it for me already ) , co op shop and all that. :(

Boooo

2009-09-06T20:20:00.000-07:00

Extremely tired. Not enough sleep. Examination l8r. Haven studied yet.

it's okay

2009-09-05T11:20:00.003-07:00

Curently @ Doreen's place! It wasn't such a bad day after all ! Not long after i reached her place, played with Scooby and all that. Myyyy she's such a cute baby. Extremely adorable ! She's just like Qq like seriously alike! Looking @ her it makes me really happy! (: But no matter how much she's alike him, Qq will always be one , no other.(:

We're intending to order Mac for sahur l8r ! i cannot wait !!!!

2009-09-05T06:27:00.000-07:00

Yes hooray for me & fuck you.

I can't believe it's the 3rd time you're trying to pick an unreasonable fight with me. You selfish bitch. Whatever it is you're getting way outta hand and i'm glad i walked away just now. Fuck this job because i never ever ever wanna work for a manager like you. I'm glad i threw the cap/apron back @ you. Cause you really pissed the fuck out of me today. Like what i wrote in the note to you, you're not worth any employees' hard work @ all. With your fucking sucky attitude, no employee would stay and help you. We're not your dogs, i think i don't even treat my own dog like a dog , i treat him like one of my own. But you? You treat us like slaves/maids. It's really fucked up. Let me give you a piece of advice, you should change your fucking attitude to your employees cause no one would stay for a manager like you, with your kind of attitude, even the new employees you're gonna hire will back out and not come to work just like the others. So stop whining and complaining about how we people are irresponsible and stuff, like what about yourself? Retarded. Stupid annoying bitch.

On the other hand, i'm sorry baby. I left you working and walked off. :( I'll still be staying over @ your place tonight, sahur tgt in the morning, go class tomorrow with you, break fast together with you and all that. I'm really really really sorry Doreen bby. :'(

I went home right after that and i'm watching Howie do it. It made me happier, i feel much better now. I think i'm lucky to have my boyfriend and friends tgt with me. The first person i called just now was Qusyairi and he tried to cheer me up & accompanied me the whole time. The second was Siewhui she too cheered me up and told me it wasn't worth working for someone who doesn't even appreciate your presence @ work. & the 3rd was Syaza. She was working when she called me asking me what happened. The 4th is Doreen , despite working she gave me a huge hug and told me to cheer up :(

Pixie lott

2009-09-04T21:43:00.000-07:00

ETHAN'S SO CUTE IN THIS PICTURE.

My mom woke me up like @ 9.30am just now. Because. .. . I wanted to go to tomorrow's lesson so badly i kept bugging her to change the day to change my address on Sat instead of Sun. So. .. I got up with a very bad moon ( because not enough sleep kan ). But upon hearing that Ethan will be tagging along . .. My mood changed immediately to happppppy ! We even went to the new house to see see look look and i took pictures today. Omg, i can't wait like seriously. 16 more days. I can't wait for the house warming party / over night parties with girlfriends and all that.

I hope that there won't be much people @ work today. I don't care if you don't have sales. Its your motherfucking problem.

2009-09-04T12:01:00.000-07:00

This is so cute, i like , i like

2009-09-04T10:12:00.000-07:00

Does she kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head? And does she sing to you incessantly from the space between your bed and wall? Does she walk around all day at school with her feet inside your shoes, looking down every few steps to pretend she walks with you? Oh, does she know that place below your neck that is your favorite to be touched? And does she cry through broken sentences like, ‘I love you far too much’? Does she lay awake listening to your breath, worried you smoke too many cigarettes?"

I do.

2009-09-04T09:57:00.000-07:00

I realise that i really am lost without you.

like without your presence, texts, calls, voice, you being by my side.

2009-09-04T03:17:00.001-07:00

you don't answer my calls, you don't reply my texts, when i needed you the most. .. ... . . .. .

Go listen to pixe lott - the fall / turn it up ( this is the name of the song i think )

2009-09-04T01:29:00.000-07:00

It's not like i want to do this like deliberately or what. Yes it's my fault for not taking notice of my own schedule, i screwed up. But still? It's my first time late? Like cock up you know why can't you give another chance and have to take me out of schedule? Are you a fucktard? Are you retarded? At least it wasn't no call no show for the entire whole day ? I was already prepared and stuff, in uniform and all, getting ready for work than i called to apologise to tell that i'm sorry i woke up late and all that. But fuck i received a nice sentence like, oh you have been taken out of the schedule. so i said okay, so tmr what time do i start and then another sentence like. . .no joanne , my name is joan for fucksake you don't have to come any more. I was like WTF times 100000 times. You think i'm playing a fool ? You think i don't need the job or the money? Fuck you, i need the job and the money urgently if not why would i turn back to my old job? But you know what i shut up and just said sorry. Because why ? i want the job badly. I even cried. Why the fuck did i even cry? I don't know. Sissy.

Sigh, i need you but where are you now other than slping @ home?

2009-09-03T23:44:00.000-07:00

17 more days till i have my awesome room, i don't have to share a room with my sister. 17 more days to the cool shit black shiny glam toilets, 17 more days to the cool extended platform in the living room for me to lie down and read books, 17 more days to the kick ass long and spacious living room, 17 more days to the new balinese style home, 17 more days to the black flowery wardrobe of mine, 17 more days to my huge masquerade themed mirror of mine, just 17 more days to the new home which belongs to my family & i. Ours, but not rented anymore. Just ours. Fucking awesome!

2009-09-03T22:45:00.000-07:00

It's time we learn to accept and love our body the way it is.
So what if you're skinny/fat ? Just be happy with who you are & what you have.

Which category would you want to be in? 6? 8? 10? 12? 14? 16?

2009-09-03T14:40:00.000-07:00

I miss the , running in the rain, hugging in the rain to keep each other warm, kissing in the rain and lastly wiping off the raindrops from your face that makes you annoyed.

~~When will you treat me better?~~

2009-09-03T10:24:00.000-07:00

"She belongs to me”, he said simply. “She was you know, all the things I’m not. And I was all the things she wasn’t. She could paint circles around anyone; I can’t even draw a straight line. She was never into sports; I’ve always been.” He lifted his outstrectched palm and curled his fingers. “Her hand”, he said. “It fits mine perfectly".

Beautiful, i love this. Can't you see how love can bring us so much hope and confidence ? Even though it tears you apart from time to time? Well, i think this ride is all worth while. I love to love and be loved by the one i love.

2009-09-02T22:40:00.000-07:00

This post is for all my friends (:

Siewhui, Shi kin, Syaza, Murnie, Doreen, Fidiyanah, Sallyha, Seri, Kynna.

The lists goes on to, my bestest friend ever Qusyairi Bin Johari, my best friend since sec1, my lovely morons, my awesome workmates and all close friends.

I love you all many many.

2009-09-02T14:01:00.000-07:00

Time check : 5.01AM

I still can't sleep this time not because i'm upset. It's because i really can't sleep, cause love texted me and all already. I'm feeling way better now , hehe. I just had my awesome yummy pre-dawn meal. Tom yum cup noodle , i bought it specially for sahur. I'm feeling happy now, had a nice meal, had nice company, am satisfied now.

To do list : get doreen her lion , get both syaza and doreen a birthday present, work more often.

Ever since i grew closer to doreen i keep eating pasta mania, have alot of craving for ramly burger, sticky chewy choc from swensens, breeks, yummy food from geylang bazaar and the list goes on and on.

Random note, i love pixie lott, her songs are so awesome, very nice! her songs are currently on repeat on my playlist.

Night/morning all.

2009-09-02T11:53:00.000-07:00

I'm fucking tired right now but i can't sleep because i feel so upset today. It's 2.54am now my mind is asking me to sleep but my heart tells me not to. It was our 18th before the clock striked 12am today. Well, it already sucked due to the fact that i was working because i totally forget about our monthsary. Then again i was hoping you'd pick me from work like how we said the day before. You said see first because you'd wanna surprise me so i believe you. I was looking forward to it, because it'll be the very very first time you'll be doing this through out our 1yr6mth relationship. But look @ the time now, no text, no call, no you. It was an hour before work end & i was already happy and excited, i even asked Seri to order food for me to take away cause i thought we could have supper together after work. Then it was 5 mins to work end i was even more excited and happy. .. . But when work ended, no you. I kept looking around wondering if you were anywhere near by. but no. . .Sallyha texted me and i thought she was part of the surprise too but nope it wasn't she was asking about her thumbdrive. I was even more disappointed ... . .. .. . knowing that you're not coming. I thought it's okay if you're not coming because i can still surprise you by bringing supper to your place so that you can have a good meal. But, you never answered my calls.. . ..... . I waited and waited. Doreen asked me to follow them so that i wouldn't have to go to your place all alone waiting like a fool, i went on with them. But. .. . through out the whole time i was thinking of you. Kinna's dad sent us all home but i choose not to head home but go to your place. I tried my best to call you again but still no answer, texted you, no reply. I was really really sad this time. I went to your place left the food outside your house. The food was already very cold and i felt why the fuck did i even bother to go to your place. Because i love you. . ..... . .. . .. . Nevermind, forget it. It makes me feel like crying whenever i have to think about this. Sigh.

2009-09-01T22:02:00.001-07:00

Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.

I'm trying hard to let go of it , really really. But i guess it's really just too tough? I guess most of my family members have forgotten about Qq already. Except for me. ... .. sigh.

2009-09-01T10:09:00.000-07:00

Happy 18th Qusyairi J (:

I think that when you fall in love with someone, every single day you spend with them, you fall in love even more. It’s like you find something else to love about them everyday. The way they laugh, the way they sneeze, even the way they blink. I think that’s how relationships last — when things are exciting. Every day you spend with that person is like an adventure into their soul.

Met up for grocery shopping , buying dvds, home, buke-d @ home, movie marathon, sleep, wake up, game of life, mah jong, ice cream, cuddled, wished happy 18th, home. I like this very much.

Wednesday = work / pbl report
Thursday = <3
Friday = work
Saturday = work full shit
Sunday = class & <3
Monday = exam -.-" / last day of school

& 8 more days to doreen baby's birthday, 15 more days to syaza other half's birthday. Am kinda stress regarding the multiple birthdays in Sept. Because i'm practically extremely broke now. & i wonder what am i gg to do for their birthdays? I probably have to rob the bank man. Sigh. What a friend right.

Goood night alllllll.

2009-08-31T19:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the 3rd month you left us.
Today's your 7th birthday. :(
Happy Birthday QQ.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH :'(

2009-08-30T11:19:00.000-07:00

An awesome Breeks outing (: Just like the old times.

It was really nice catching up with them, eating Ramly burgers' and all that jazz.

Second day @ work.

Doreen baby came to find me & we went back to my place (:

This is my babylove. My sweetest sweetest love. I love you.

I'm starting to love my job more and more now. I don't give a damn whether i'm working @ retail line or what so ever. Work is work to me there's no need to bother about looks, dresing & etc. I just love the fact that i'm working hard to earn some extra cash for myself. Not everyone is rich, fact is i do alot of saving up. I'm just looking forward to every 30th of the month when i'll get my payslip and say mama papa let's go eat or baby let me treat you or mama don't have to give me any money here's 100 dollars for you. Heh heh (: Good night.

2009-08-29T12:04:00.001-07:00

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it’s completely silent. You would think that something so important would probably make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But its silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

2009-08-28T22:53:00.002-07:00

There's always going to be that one guy. The one whom you fight with constantly and drives you completely insane. The one who knows just what to say to piss you off beyond reason one minute and then have you laughing hysterically the next. The one who knows you inside and out and knows about your imperfections, but he doesn’t care because he loves you anyway. The one whom you can hang out with, doing nothing and still have a good time. The one whom you cry to after something bad happens. The one who’ll tell you everything will be okay and you know it will be because he said so. And most importantly, he’s the one who will always love you no matter what happens and you know what? You’ll always love him too.

2009-08-28T22:53:00.001-07:00

Sometimes all you need is someone. Someone to make you smile when you’re sad. Someone to tell you you’re beautiful. Someone to give you hugs and kisses, just because he feels like it. Someone to talk to every night when your day ends. Someone to say i love you and mean it. Sometimes, all you need is that one person to make a difference in your life.

2009-08-28T00:55:00.001-07:00

Walk with me. Talk with me. Share your secrets with me. Be with me. Believe in me. Stand by my side. Care about me. Smile with me. Laugh with me. Joke with me. Dance with me. Cry with me. Catch me. Respect me. Trust me. Be honest with me. Take care of me. Make memories with me. Miss me. Kiss me. Need me. Want me. Hug me. Dream of me. Look at me. Hold me. Take my hand. Know me. Complete me. And most of all… love me.

2009-08-27T11:32:00.000-07:00

Can never imagine life without you, it's the most horrible thing that can ever take place.

To do list for this saturday :
1. buke together
2. watch @ least 2 movies tgt
3. play sims3
4. have supper together
5. play monopoly/game of life together
6. play mah jong tgt
7. watch you fall asleep
8. fall asleep after you
9. wake up and send you off

I can't wait for this, it's been awhile.

I <3 you.

2009-08-26T21:56:00.000-07:00

That's me and Doreen <3 in the picture. I am lazy to rotate you seeeee. .. . .

Okay last night she picked me up from work and we head to my place ! She stayed over @ my place & we had early sahur like @ 2.30am. -.-" We had salmon sandwhich / ham & chesse sandwhich / waffle fries / pasta with mushroom sauce ! Perangai babi. Okay so we fell asleep @ 3am , thought of waking up @ 4am to sahur but ! ... .. ... ..... ... . I couldn't wake up , even Qus didn't wake me up for sahur ! :( So . . .. we slept till like 8 am then we realise that we can't have our pre dawn meal anymore. -.-""

2009-08-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

I believe in sleeping in. I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80. I believe in kisses on the forehead. I believe in long kisses, smiling till your cheeks hurt, and laughing until you have tears in your eyes. I believe in having someone tell you that you’re beautiful. I believe in having someone play with your hair. I believe in sitting on swings and running in the rain. I believe in miracles and random acts of kindness. I believe in saying hello to anyone and everyone. I believe in second chances. And most of all, I believe in love.