TGIF! finally it's the end of the week, am having class tonight @ 7pm.... spells tired. Anyway it's the end of the 3rd week of work today, how fast time flies huh? Training is fun but tiring eventhough all we do is sit infront of the computer and just go through alot of elearning. The cool part about working here is there we have assesment! We have this exam we need to score above 85 marks inorder to pass! It is stressful you know having to study for school and also for work ! Eversince i started working, time is as usual... too little for me. My mondays are for my family, my tuesdays & thursdays are for my boyfriend, my wednesdays and fridays are for my night classes & my saturdays and sundays are for my school assignments! I've always thought that i was a monring person since i am always up early whenever i am not working. teehee. but i found out that i wasn't when i started working, waking up @ 6 in the morning was once of the toughest challenges in life ever ! i even slept early every night now hoping it would be easier for me to wake up in the morning but damn it doesn't even work! Anyway what else should i update about eh? Hmmm family is doing great, Ethan is growing up very well now, he knows what is a fan, spoon, watch, clock, drum, umbrealla etc. My mom is no longer sick, my dad is working hard, my sister is forever complaining. So everything seems pretty normal for me :) anyway it's my time to go now. ttyl

I just spent the entire day at home today ! Slept for nearly 12 hours, explains how tired i was. Even after my 12 hours of sleep i am still extremely sleepy ! I will be turning in early today for work tomorrow ! I'll be meeting the love tmr, haven been spending quality time recently because i was busy. :( okay, i will be gg to sleeeeeeeeep now!!!!!!!!!

Today was my first day of work @ Delta, honestly the work environment is fine it's nice. The people there are friendly, okay maybe not all of them but most of them are friendly. :) They kept welcoming us to the Delta Airlines family. Honestly i feel happy cause i consider this my first job eventhough i've worked at different places before. Anyway i just celebrated my mom's birthday tgt with my brother and my sister. :) MY MOTHER IS SO SUPER DUPER CUTE SOMETIMES! She wasn't expecting any cake or present at all. So when she saw the cake & present, she made a super duper cute face! Teehee. I LOVE MY MOTHER SO MUCH, I THANK ALLAH FOR MY MOTHER !!! :D

Will go to bed early tonight ! Am gonna have another long day tmr at work and in school !

XOXOXOXO

Life failed me today, just one day.

boring

I noticed that I haven been posting anything over here, well I'm busy with attachment. sucks big time. I'm working now @ the club lounge now and currently there's only one couple here having their breakfast. I wonder why they don't wanna go down cause there are lots more of food downstairs for you to choose. Well I guess they like privacy and quietness. Cause when you're alone @ club lounge it's like super quiet , you'll get bored......

FUCKYEAHPARAMORE! MY ONLY REASON TO SPEND BIG BUCKS ON! I'M GONNA GET THE MOST EXPENSIVE TICKETS JUST TO SEE YOU HAYLEY ! I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS! I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY ! ANOTHER REASON FOR Q & I TO CELEBRATE ^^ AHHHHHHHHHHHH! I FUCKING LOVE YOU PARAMORE!

EVERYONE SAY FUCK YEAH PARAMORE !

ME IN WHITE TSHIRT WITH SELF WRITTEN WORDS " BABY I LOVE YOU ! ALL THE BEST ! I SUPPORT YOU !!! ALL THE WAY!! "

If you don't like to see this picture or you think it's not sweet or it disgusts you, don't come to my page. Cause i don't give a fuck if anyone doesn't like it. ^^

Sometimes don't you just wish that your girlfriend or boyfriend would just tell you not to let go or don't go or just hold you there and not let you go? I do. I think it's sweet, truth is I'd just break down and cry if this happens to me (:

Qusyairi got posted for NS already, next year on the 27th of April. I hope he gets to HNT instead so that he can defer his NS again it's kinda too fast to accept if he's gg to NS within about 5 months time. & he ever once told me if he had to go to NS he'd let me go. He has very little confidence in himself. He claims that it doesn't matter cause he doesn't want me to suffer waiting for him. I think that's just excuses, he's just scared. The purpose of my picture ! Seee! Don't let me go silly. Whatever it is whether you go to NS next year or you don't i still wanna be with you. I know 2 years is unpredictable anything can happen, who knows you might turn gay or smth idk or maybe i went off with someone else. But i just have a feeling that we can make it through. Just like my bestfriend and her boyfriend ^^ Siewhui & Hidir, I seriously salute them. They always go to Ehub play bowling and eat Burger king. So if you see a couple both skinny , playing bowling @ ehub or eating mexican drumlets @ BK you KNOW its THEM! (:

Qusyairi wake up.

1. "I love the way my fingers just fall into yours. I love how your taste still lingers on my lips after that special goodnight kiss. I love how whenever I go to call someone I automatically dial your number. I love how you look at me with those gorgeous eyes and then you smile that sweet smile. I know right there that you will always be mine. I love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go. I love you more than words could ever show."

   - (via eletheowl) (via ssomuchlove)

I just wanna be alone tonight, Not.

Abortion.

qomaspeakup:

imareblogger:

Month1: Mommy! Im 4 inches long. It’s so warm in here!

Month2: Mommy! I hear your voice. It’s a sweet luliby.

Month3: Mommy! I just found out im a boy. Aren’t you glad?

Month4: Mommy! I learned how to suck my thumb! I get alot of exercise! I can turn my head and stretch.

Month5: Mommy! Why are you crying it makes me cry to see you cry even if you can’t see me.

Month6: Mommy! That doctor lied to you. I am real. I don’t like that doctor at all.

Month7: Mommy! I hear that doctor again. Whats Abortion? WOW Mommy I feel a needle its burning Mommy! help me! I can’t get away from it…

Mommy it’s ok i’m in God’s hands now and he explained to me what abortion is.How could you do this? Didn’t you want me Mommy?

Got this from a friend's tumblr. This is so cruel & it's a sad story. I wonder how would a girl who went for abortion feel upon reading this?

"My life's pretty messed up & here i am struggling to hold on to it."

Basically, I think love is a feeling. It’s that feeling you get when you know you are going to see that person. You’re always counting down the minutes, the hours, the days, or even the months until you will see him again. Cause you love that feeling you have when you’re with him. You know that butterfly, giggly, warm, this-smile-is-never-gonna-leave-my-face feeling. Love is a feeling of perfect happiness and contentment. Being in his arms means that everything will be okay and even if it’s really not going to be, you get a feeling that he’ll do whatever he can to make it be, or just to try to make you feel better. It’s that feeling that you are loved for who you are, and you love him for who he is. Every bit of him, no matter how obnoxious or out of character it may seem at times. It’s about he is the first one you want to talk to when anything is good or bad, and how you are always learning something new, everyday that you are with him. It’s about changing and being a new person. Not necessarily changing your ways or who you are, but wanting to be a different and a better person, simply because that person is in your life and you want to be everything to them.

Laying there with your arms around me I felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute having you so close to me. As you played with my hair and kissed me, I couldn’t help but smile straight from my heart. I could see how much you cared from the look in your eyes. It made me never want to let you go. To just stay wrapped in your arms forever. Where nothing else matters but me and you.

I LOVE YOU

This is my turning point of life.

1. No more vulgarities anymore. ( I'm really trying to cut down )
2. Spend money wisely. ( I have been eating cup noodles everyday )
3. Stop drinking coke. ( I've been drinking energy drinks brought from home )
4. Work hard during my attachment. ( I'm working on it )
5. Take care of my health well
6. No sleeping @ 3 am anymore
7. Start planning for the future

I've been really busy with work, i hardly have time for anything @ all. I practically have no time for sleep, for family, for Qusyairi, for close friends, for going out. I have nothing, i have no life now. And obviously when you have no time for anything, you practically don't even have the time to text or call your friends up. Which means losing friends. I hardly talk to my family too now cause whenever i get back from work they are all asleep and i'll hit the bed straight and when i am awake for work.. .. they are all still asleep. Something i lost as well family love. Lastly my baby, i neglected him. :( I'm so sorry babe, you know i love you. & i never meant to hurt you with my texts. Just bear with me for the time being i'm working really hard for our goal to accomplish by the end of year 2009 remember? We'll stay strong for one another. (:

Sigh, my life is so messed up ever since i started working in __H. R shift 12nn to 9.30pm , B shift 1.30pm - 11pm , A shift 7am - 4.30pm , I hate them all ! I hate working in service centre and i hate working @ front desk as well. The stress is soooooooooooooooooooo #$##%$&%^*#@$! . I get pissed of by the local guests and some unfriendly and rude foreign guests. I mean, you don't have to shout @ people right? It's like people use money as something to look down on people who are working. Annoying people. And yes about the fake smiles, how do we pretend to smile when you're getting fucked upside down by the guest??????? And some guests just don't understand simple simple simple english ! Told them a million times, Sir our hotel is running full occupancy. If you would like to extent your stay with us, we'll have to upgrade you to our exec suite room @ 380++ per night. Is that okay Sir? & they will reply, WHAT DO YOU MEAN THAT I HAVE TO PAY 380 FOR ANOTHER ROOM! I DIDN'T EVEN SAY I WAS GOING TO CHECKOUT TODAY WHAT?! ( it stated clearly he was only staying for one night in the reg card and he already SIGNED it , which means he himself was certain that he was staying for only one night. Stupid fcuker ) We answer, No sir as you can see on our hotel's reg card you your departure is supposed to be today @ 12nn. But it's already 8pm now sir. And your room is already due out. You have already signed on the reg card sir. He replies rudely, WHAT?! I DIDN'T EVEN SIGN THIS THING?! NO NO... THIS IS NOT A REG CARD ( IT IS CAUSE WE WORK HERE SO WE KNW IT IS A REG CARD, CAUSE WE PRINTED IT OUT OURSELVES ) I SIGNED IT FOR BILLING. NO NO. I REMEMBERED I SIGNED IT ON A BLANK PIECE OF PAPER! How can we let a guest sign a blank piece of paper ? You dumb? It's a fucking reg card dude! IF AH IF CAN NK SMACK DOWN JER!

I'm working on my mom's birthday :(

A different story

I was so wrong for so long
Only tryna please myself
Girl, I was caught up in the club
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should've treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

So let me in give me another chance
To really be your man
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you were meant to be together

Girl, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
Cause things ain't right

the moment i found out that you lied to me, i thought i felt a sharp pain in my chest. i was calling out for help but there wasn’t any voice and no one came to rescue me. i thought i felt my heartbeat stop , i thought i was dead. because the pain, it was excruciating. and my tears , it seemed like as though i was crying an ocean for you.

Hi Qusyairi, I miss you. You miss me?